Thursday, August 24, 2006
Haloo boys and girls. Lol ... Well , it have been a long time since i blogged. Had been receiving complains and negative feedback from u guys. >_<. Haha. Aaa dont worry, never blog for so many days, doesn't mean this blog is going to be 5k words long. Lol ... Actually, i dont remember what i realli did these past fews days. Very hard to recall. But will try me best to blog everything. Haha.
Here it goes.
17 August. Thursday. Still quite remember pieces of junk i did. Haha. Wake up late. Then slacked the whole day away. Sort of played the day away. And exam was tmr. Lol. But still got study a bit. Then that day was over. Well i sort of forget what i did. Thats thursday for me. Haha.
18 August. Friday. EXAM DAY. The examination time was 6pm to 8pm. First time of my life, i took a exam that late. Haha. Morning wake up at 11am. There was still a lot to study. Lol. Then slack slack slack ... Play dota. Then think of her. Lol ... Then 4pm le. Never study yet. I was like. Dead liao la. Dont care. Then slack around a while longer. Then go bath, set off le.
While travelling to school. I read throught my notes and found. Hmmm , suddenly i asdorb the maths theory very fast. Maybe MRT, cooling, then stand there , no1 making noise. Then learn and recap very fast ba. Then reach school around 5.20pm. Then sit down a while talk to class mate. Then buy a can of drink , then go exam le. Haha. Was a bit stressed, cause i knew i did a very sloopy revision. But luckily got char encouragement. Lol ...
Woah i said , when i first saw the exam paper. It was like ... Ahaha . So easy =X. Lol.. All know how to do, donno 1 also anyhow ti calm. Lol ... Then made quite a lot of silly mistakes and error, but overall , think will score quite well ba. Then there was a instruction on the first page that said. That, out of section a and b , there is 70 marks. But u only can get a max of 50 marks from it. Its like. U score 20 for a and 40 for b, total 60 right? But only get 50 marks. Uds or not? Haa. Then i throw away a question that i am not confident , plus that question need a lot of working, 1 error, whole question gone. Then i let go of it. Haha. Then finish quite well la.
After the test. Checked answers with class mate a while. Then i told tidus, about the 50 marks out of 70 mark thing. Then his whole face changed. Cause he never read. Then sort of wasted a lot of time in section b then section c never complete. Then he sadded <--- i know wrong spelling. Haa. Then i see him , like he realli sian tiao lor. Then i also sian tiao. Cause i donno how to cheer him up. Then got a case of misunderstanding. But things are okie now. =). First time, he come hougang, then go hougang mall and eat mac. Haha. Then after that, we went home. Was tired. Then went to sleep.
18 & 19 August. Saturday & Sunday. Will be combining these 2 days together. As i was awake when sat become sunday. Sat wake up. Found its 10 plus le. Hehe, cause exam finish mah, then sleep long long, keep dont wanna get myself up. Then wake up le. Played a bit of dota. Then asked sky if he wanna come go out. Cause meeting Crystal mei and char for the first time. Then i only guy a bit ps and they will be studying then u wan me to study or stare at them meh ... Haa. Then meet up with sky at city hall. He was LATE. Lol. But in the end , never late, cause the girls say, they will be late and raech at 1.30pm. Then say 1.35pm. Then , i orh ... Know whats happening. Haha.
Reach there at 1.30pm. Then i and sky walked around, then spotted my mei, cause she got let me preview what she was wearing lor. Then got see her face b4 mah. Then i was shock. Mei so tall. Lol.. Despite she told me that she was 1.69. Then 1 sec later, spotted char. Sort of see , know its her le. Donno why. Only 1 photo for reference.Like she said herself. 1.60 small small ti ^_^. Lol. Then i saw a very funny thing. They saw each other, then was very excited and happy. Cause they also never meet b4 mah. Then i was like rofl. Then purposely walk pass them, but they never saw us. Haha. Then after meeting. I was like, woah ... char was beautiful ... >_<(too bright, flashbang. LOL). Lol. Mei was also beautiful (>_< must say also, if not mei say i bias). We walked a bit, still cannot decide on where to sit. Then we went to long john sliver. Then buy food, eat. Then chatted a lot. char took out her stuff and started doing her work. Then i ask mei, u not going to study? Then mei say, never bring... Then mei keep telling me and sky , lame joke. But we still laugh. LOL. All these while, char was very focus, keep doing homework. But she never talk much. So i thought she was a quiet person. Then after that, stayed there till the manager scold us for occuping seats. >_< so ps ... Lol. Then walk around junction 8 ... Then mei sms me, wanna take neoprints now? Then i was like =.= ... Less than 5m away, need to sms meh. Haa. Then we went and took neoprint. It was a lot of fun. Haa. Brothers, find 1 day and take neoprints, cannot say no arh. ( sound gayish LOL. But okie la. Take for fun.=).)Then take le, cut cut cut. char was feeling unwell.No wonder she was so quiet. Must had been hard on her, unwell , still come out ... Haiz. Then char took her share of neoprints then went of le. Then after that, all go other places, got own activities mah. Then each of us say bye bye. On mrt, mei keep laughing, say look at me , wanan laugh i was like =.= ... Well okie la, mei laugh, happy mah. Must take a look in mirror soon , to find out whats wrong with me ...
Haa. Then i went to find tidus and jj at about 6pm., they were ice skating at fuji , jurong east there. Then reach there. Went to look for them. Had a good chat with them. Keep disturbing each another. Then they both say, here got a lot of he and fb. Lol. I was like =.= ... Come here ice skate or look at cha bor ti. They say both! Lol ... Then i went down to play arcade a while. Then up again. Then down again. Then yu ting jie , call me. Then i went to mrt to fetch her. Then we almost walk pass each other. Then she called out for me. Then i look at her. WTF. When did my jie , from ah lian jie, become a pretty jie. LOL. Then yu ting say, go buy cake. Cause on 19 august, sat, that day , was keli birthday. Then tidus say wanna celebrate mah. Then celebrate lor. Then buy a weird weird ti cake. Haa. 1 slice ti. Then bring up to fuji and meet up with keli. Then both my brother come out le. Then 1 of them was limping. I was like WTF. What happen. Aiyo. Well , i did expect bad things to happen. But not this bad ba. So many bad things happen. Well , my left eye keep jumping when i was taking mrt to bishan to meet char. char got sick. jj fell and hurt his leg and was unable to go for competition on sunday morning. Then i was like what can happen next. Haiz ... Haa ... Then we went and eat mac at around 10pm. I order 2 burger as i was very hungry. Lol. Then. We ate and laughed a lot. Then we went to a nearby supermarket and buy a 1 litre 40% acholic drink. Then we took all the way to tara meira(donno how to spell) then take bus to tidus home. Then we used jojo(tidus dog) as an excuse to go out and drink, cause cannnot drink at his house mah. Very the ...
Then we went to 4 bus stop away park to drink , reach there about 12 midnight. Then we played tai di. Then lose 1 must drink. I was like wtf, cause always, i keep losing losing. Out of 10 card games, i will lose 8-9. Serious. But that time, my luck was considered very good. Was never last. Except once. i wanna drink then purposely never throw any cards. Lol... Then keli drink until. So cute. Lol. The face a bit pinkish. Haa. Realli like got put makeup liddat. Then she like a bit drunk. Cause she seldom or can consider as never drinks. Then both my brother siao ti. They keep drinking those , 4 caps to remaining spite per cup. I was like only 2 caps. Then moreever. They drink fast and solid. Lol. Then keep playing. Then play dare. Damn funny. Every1 get a card. Then lowest must bite highest ear. I was like wtf. But interesting. End up, tidus bite jj ear, then jj bite yu ting ear, then i bite jj ear >_<. lightly la. Not hard ti. Then after that. What pass a m&m from mouth to mouth. jj pass to tidus. Then was like AHAHAHA. Then keli have to pass a piece of ice to yu ting mouth. Then so cute. Haa. Keli keep saying the ice very cold, hurri hurri! . Lol ... But me like never tio anything leh.. Sian ... But look at them also very funny. Haha. Then tidus got drunk. Very very badly, till i and jj have to carry him home. Its like he only can help himself walk a bit. Then i and jj have to carry him all the way. Until he was say, 25m from his home, then he more awake.Then walked the remaining back. Then after he reach his home garden, fall down and sleep like a newborn baby. Haha. Sleep infront of house door. Then cannot carry him in, as he vomit all over himself.
I was like haha, u also got today. Silly brother. Then have to guard over him. Then jojo, very close to me.Keep staying close to me, let me pat. Then tickle him a bit. Then he lie down , then when heard a noise, head will rise, then i quickly pat his head, then his lay his head down again. cute right ? Haa. But he is even closer to jj, he wanna lick jj a lot , cause jj got the stench of vomit all over him, cause when carrying, tidus still vomit on him again. Then jojo smell it and keep wanting to lick jj. Lick here and there. jj put up a struggle, preventing jojo from licking his armpit and face. Lol. I was like giggling when that happen. Then what about the 2 girls. They were very helpful.I and jj asked both of them to take a rest. After all that happen la, guess they were tired. Then we spented some time with jojo. Then okie la. Was not sian. Then i went up and check the girls out. They were ENJOYING themselve. Lol ... On aircon, on mp3 , lie down on bed, so shaung . Haha. Then i ask the girls to prepare bathing stuff. Wanted jj to bath, if not he have to keep fending off jojo advances to lick him. Lol ... Then asked jj to bath first.
Then something that made me very surprized happen. Keli came and sit beside me. jj was bathing, then yu ting was sleeping. In tidus bed. Then tidus was on my left. Sleeping like pig. Then keli was on my left, i look at her, with a surprize look. Then asked her to go back up to rest. She replied , cannot sleep and wasn't tired. Then we chatted and chatted. Then she asked why my brother bath so long ti, then we went up and saw that my brother was sleeping. Haha. Then went back down again. Then sort of , she pei me, i pei her, till morning. =). During that time, she was hungry, then very hungry, for the first time i can see that she was hungry, then she went into the house and bring bread out. Then she took the bread skin to eat, very cute lor. Keep munching. She must be very hungry. Then jojo came, eyeing keli bread. Lol. Then keli fed jojo. Keep throwing the bread far far, making jojo go here and there, haha. Then no more bread skin le mah, then she asked me , u wanan eat or not. I was like, u asked because no 1 eat the bread white right? Haa. Then no choice i eat bread white. Haa. Then she feel a bit tired. Then went into the house and sit on the sofa, then i went into the kitchen and pour her a cup of water. Then she said, i like serving a sick person. Haa. Then the living room was dark dark ti. Then i nothing to do, then sit down on the floor at look at her, Silly me right? Then talk a bit more, then passed her her birthday present. Then she say, what izzit? Later in the morning then open. Then she seem realli tired, then i took my outwear and lay it over her, cause i scare that she was cold. Then after she rest a bit. I asked her to go up and sleep. Then she ask me, you leh? Then i say, one person must take care of tidus mah, i be the one lor. Haa. Then she went up and sleep. Which after, a while, i went up and check on her, help her pull the banklet on her nicely. =). Then after awhile, brother wake up. Then chatted with him a while, then he go back sleep le. Then I also took a bath, cause i stink , and wanted to refresh myself. Then after a while, keli came out, and said she still cannot sleep. Haha. Then i asked keli, if she wanna prepare breakfast together for those on top or not. She excitily say okie. Haha. Then we decided on bread and egg. Then i was making a din >_< while searching for the pan. Haha. Then keli ask me if i know how to crack egg or not, then i say yes, haa. Aiyo donno how to crack. >_<. Lol. Then the first egge we cooked together. ACtually, we wanted those sunny sunny egg ti. Then become scrammble egg. Then it was a lot of fun lor. Haha. Then after that , tidus mum, came and help. And she cooked the eggs. While keli was toasting bread on the pan. Haa. Then when breakfast was ready, i asked those 3 on top to come down to eat. Then only yu ting jie woke up. Then we 3 ate breadfast. Then yu ting jie was like half awake ti. Then later still have to attend her ah ma birthday, and have to say, happy birthday ah ma. Lol. Then after that, they both went up and sleep, like before, checked out them, helped keli to put the banklet well again. Then there was once, cause keep seeing yu ting jie like using most of the blanklet . Then keli was half covered. Then i tug at the blanklt hard hard. Then yu ting jie woke up, then went back to sleep again. Then tidus woke up. Then went upstairs to sleep again. On the floor, after bathing of course. Then i sit on the chair. And looked after 4 of them again. Then while looking, i thought about the event that happened ... ... Then realise, that, my feeling for keli, was back. When was it, i thoguht. Its was since, when i saw her face red red, very ke ai. =).That short period of time, that i spent with her sort of alone. I was realli happy, for the first time of so long, i was happy, it was a different type of happiness, not celebrating brother birthdays, not happy new year type. But just pure happiness. Thats something i realli haven't felt for a vey long time. Thanks keli realli alot ...=).
Then after that, we pack our stuff, and shared a cab, haa.Went home, Sunday morning. Damn farking tired. Then saw mum and brother at void deck, then chatted a while and went up. Bathing first thing. Then as always after bathing , more awake. Then checked online stuff , made sure that the girls reach home all that, then sleep after chatting with tidus. Then sleep a while only. Then around 5 pm wake up. Then chatted with keli. Haa. Chatted till very happy. Then was also worried for char. Haiz ... Half of me happy, other half sad. Then played a bit dota. Then chatted on msn , then very tired, went sleeping. Thats sunday and saturday.
Then monday to wednesday, did nothing much la. Dont realli remember which day happen what. All jumble up le. But i do remember these event. Rj, a close ex classmate of my. PONG TANG, then early in the morning sms me. I was like ,wtf, who sms me early in the morning. Then haa, oic , u pong tang then nowhere to go. Then i meeted up with him and eat breakfast, then after which he come my house use my com to play dota and td from 11pm to 6pm. Then i was like laying down and relax and think. Then another event was, going out with my 2 brothers to find jobs. Haiz ... Then find find find, then sian tiao. Almost qarruel with jj. Then used 2 days to find jobs.
Then chatted quite a bit on msn, asked if keli got a compatible necklace to match her birthday present or not. Then talked to yun yong. This and that. Then thats online life.Then char that side, asked me a very weird thingy, she ask me to choose 1 , yes or no , just say one. Then i replied her one. But later send, the answer that come to me first, was yes. Then she say my answer was same as crystal mei ti and some others, then said what thats the answer it told me. Till today still donno what that it is, and what she was asking about. Then she say, things will be reveal, soon, real soon. I was like O.o ... Wait lor, since she dont wanna say, but what ever decision she made , will support her. =).
Then i asked my jie, brothers about a problem i have, those who know, DO NOT METION OR BRING IT UP. Thanks. Then every of them, are vey good to me, they never scold me, some give me good solutions, then some encourage me, some console me ... Thanks a lot. =). Today, thursday, i wanan spent some time alone, thinknig about this problem, i thought i solve it, but i was actually, throwing it at the back of my head. Then it resurface again. Now things are more complex, harder to solve, decisions are harder to make. Which, do i even can decide ...
Thats all, Bye. Hope u enjoy reading my blog. =).
Hexer :~:
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Hmmm, Some ppl complain that, yesterday never blog wor ... Cause yesterday 15 aug, study till quite late, then totally forget about blogging. Haha. So today16 aug ,i will be blogging for tues 15 and wed 16 of aug. Which both are happy days. =).
Starting with yesterday, tuesday, holiday. Haha. Early in the morning wake up, first thing, grab glasses and put them on, then check hp for time and overnight messages.See the time 9pm. =.=, siao liao, late for meeting zzr, meeting him at 9.30 at hougang interchange. Then called him and told him i will be late, then he was also sleeping ... Cause he read manga till very late. Then we changed timing to 11am-1pm squash, and we met for breakfast. Haha. I was wondering why was i late while preparing my stuff, then i remember, i did wake up at 8.30 ... Pressed stop to stop my hp alarm ... Then went back to sleep >_<, haha... Then we ate breakfast at mac and chatted a lot. Althought mostly he is speaking la. Lol. Since quite long, never had a good chat with zhao rong.
Then we went to squash court. There was no1 there , cause it was 11am and was tuesday a weekday. Then we played squash , he was very strong. Indeed improve a lot. He trained very hard, so of course will overtake me la. Then sms char meanwhile the squash, when resting. Then chatted a bit more. Lol. Then asked him to attend my birthday gathering for next year, he say okie, then chatted a lot lor. Hmmm , seem like he still like that '____'(donno wat name ti girl ... ) Haha ...
Then after squash , took a bus back to hougang, and meet up with my mum awhile only , actually intent to shop and eat with her ti, but very tired, cause woke up early and play sport, then say bye bye to mum, and went back home to bath. Then saw jj online, played with him a bit. Then saw char and mei online, then as usual , chatted with both of them.Then very tired, cannot tahan, want to sleep.
Before sleeping, char keep reminding to study ... Sweet of her right? Then i wanna wake up at 6pm, then she say, must wake up at 6pm SHARP. So strict of her. =). Most of all, she suprize me, sending me a sms at 6pm to wake me up. So sweet and thoughtful of her right? Then she keep saying, go study now. Then no choice, then go study, rarely i found myself focusing when studying, but at that time, studying seem so easy, maybe got her encouragement ba. Then halfway, msn her, then she keep saying , dont wanna disturb me ... Then i counter attack! Saying this, u never disturb me ... in fact , if u never encourage and remind me to study2 , i would have maybe just did a sloppy revision and thats all. Then next phrase , and the stuff , i was thinknig about when having my revision ... was ... And the last phrase, (guess every1 should know ba) you ... Haha, but she still think that she was interupting me from my studies. Then this time flood her with messages ... Haha till she lost of words... Lol ... She's a very selfless girl. No wonder i am so deeply drawn to her. Then chatted a bit more. Lastly, she say that , she often dont know what i really think, then always make me upset. I was like, O.o , omg , pls dont say until liddat >_<. Then i replied ... "U had never ever made me upset before ..." , "but you are the cause of my joy , my worries and sadd. till now ... " And thats the truth. Then she asked if i need a change in that if it making me uncomfortable ... FAINTED. Her thoughtfulness, caring and selflessness, is realli you know you, is realli those very very rare ti. Can meet her, is a few lifetime accumlated good luck... And i believe she can make A CARING & TRUE & ENCOURAGING friend, a EXCELLENT & THOUGHTFUL gf. A PERFECT wife ... Lol ... Back to the conversation. Then i reply her , "i cant change that , and think its sort of a good thing ba ... >_< i dont uds what i am trying to say also ... " Then i asked for her view. Here's her reply. "if you dont find it a burden" , "then maybe we can just let it stick to what it is now"
PAUSE FOR A MOMENT. LOOK CAREFULLY AGAIN.
ITS HAS LOTS OF MEANINGS HUH?
Then later i ask crystal mei, then mei go ask char, then i was like =.= , how can ask her, haiz ... Wan blame, blame on myself, during young age, develop iq, never develop eq, now struggling to improve eq. Haha. Then crystal spam me. Then i was like read le, still dont uds, then ask her to sum everything in a sentence. Mei say, "now everything remains the same, give her tiime and things might change to the better" Then i orh ... Meaning she need time, more ever , her exams are coming, dont wanna make her think over such things, let her concentrate first. If she didn't do well ,she will be unset and get scold ... And she made a promise to herself that she will work hard for year end as she got bad result for mid year. Must remind her daily to work hard. Maybe help her to keep a countdown to her final year exam? Yea i will do that. Haha. Thanks mei for helping again >_<. But this mei, got sudden mood swing ti. Must learn how to cheer her up. Cause dont wan to see her unhappy. Mei , if unhappy, will age very fast ti wor. So must be happy. But doesn't mean need to smile 24/7 la, face will stiff ti. Lol ... Must be like kor, even i think too much, I give myself a huge dosage of happiness daily. And a bit of saddness daily. Why give myself a bit of saddness? Not because i cant stop unhappy things, but, to let, aaa how to explain. Erm if u take a sweet after drinking bitter stuff, the sweet will taste sweeter! Liddat lor.
Hmmmm , i just notice, i always blog a huge chunk of paragraph about char, later meis and jies and brothers gonna red eye. AHAHA. Just wan u all to know, that. I intent to do so. AHAHAHA. Lame ... >_<. Seem like i very happy right ? Cause ... Before she sleep. She sent me this message. That realli MAKE ME FEEL VERY VERY HAPPY. Realli since very long that 'high' le. Not that brothers or mei or jie cannot make me feel happy la, its a kind of different happiness. Hmmm u all must be wondering what message? Why can make me so happy ...
Ya sleeping now..My eyes hurt...When you finished studying or really tired then go sleep k..Dont stress yourself..My dear boy..Know you today very tired..
Thats the message. Yup u didnt see wrongly. I know that My dear boy means nothing la. But donno why, i am very happy, like a small boy, who first ate icecream or tasted sweet. Oh gosh, silly me , am i falling in love with her? Yea! . Just cant stop looking at it, over and over again. Silly me right ? Lol, thats me lor. Then called Clara jie up and chatted a bit. Haha. Talked a bit here and there. Then go sleep le, but too happy, cant sleep, then take hp and see again? Silly me, like small little boy. Haha. Then unknowing sleep le.
Thats yesterday.Now today. Wake up, omg late again. Oh man, meeting tidus at outram , donno what time, then made him wait for 1/2 hour. Feel so bad about it. But cannot show it. Later he sad about also then >_<. Haha. Then he asked about why never blog yesterday, then i reply, too tired study finish then sleep le. Then we went to school. Reach there, slack a while, then faster study, eat lunch then back to study.
Then exam le ... STRESS! Athought i dont show it. Cause use to it le. Then she ask me to cool down, relax and prepare for exam. Then exam started, when first flip throught the paper ... Thought, gone case le ... get 30 mark liao. Then after focusing and donig the paper, okie la. Not that hard, then some part ,when revising i miss out, then no choice had to leave a few blank. But will pass ba i think. =). Even if dont pass, i wanna thanks char for reminding me to study then sort of no choice got to study. It's like , i feel , if never study hard will let down her , then like , i studying for her liddat >_<, weird and strange right ? I myself also donno why liddat. Realli donno what to do without her excouragement lor. Haha.
Then after exam, every1 went home, then donno why, on the way home, on mrt, i keep oppsiting my bro viewpoint, then make him piss off, althought he say its not my fault, surely even its not my fault, its me who make him show his bad feelnig out ti >_<, should keep my mouth shut. Then when changing line, saw jac and ks(classmate) and chatted with them a bit, then found out that they were going to play bowling. Got off the train at chinatown, cause jac wanna buy 4D, then i was shock, cause jac only 16 then can buy leh ... Maybe she in ____ condition( JJ whats the word arh?). Then can fake through ba. Haha. Then chatted a while more while on train again. Then jac did some plam reading, she say, funny stuff, my marriage will be a very strong and close 1, as indicated on my plam i was like =.=. Next , she say, the line across ur left(boys left girl right) plam quite uncommon, left to right is link ti , then say got a meaning ti, but forget... Then i was like >_< ming ku, then liddat lor. Haha. Then reach home, no1 open door for me.Haha, cause every1 out mah. Then on computer, see char online, chat with her, but didnt see crystal mei online. But got saw denise mei online then chat and joke with her a bit , see her photo, look more mature and grown more pretty le. Haha. I got beautiful and cute meis. Haha.
Then chatted with char as usual. 'Debated' with her again for addressing, i keep asking her, what she wan me to call her as, she keep asking me to decide >_<. Then okie lor , i decide, call her char. >_<. Cause i saw she tag as char and asked if she like her name, then call char lor. Donno what that yu ting jie, first time see her name, pronunce her name as car-lorries. I was like roll on floor laughing aka rofl !!! Okie la i also dont reall i know how to realli pronunce her name. Haha. >_<. Still learning from jj how to pronunce the correct way >_<. Haha. Then i asked her to call me kh, as only close1 can call me that, who are those who are reading this blog and entry now. Actually, deep down inside, i hope she can call me my dear boy, but i know its inappropriate , so ask her call me kh. Then chatted a while more, cause today , she no hw, and had a tiring training. So she wanna sleep at 10pm. Then chat with her a while and as her to sleep le. Then as always, she ask me dont neglect myself and keep worrying about her. =). Everything little things she say , she mean it. Thats so nice of her, hmmm , actually, i got something in mind and had been done le. Just for her, a little sercet, cannot say out. Haha. ^_^.
Will be reading her, my dear boy message again before sleeping. Lol ... A favourite pastime of mine, act blur , act stupid , act indecivise and i learn and saw a lot more . Haha. But realli sometimes, i just dont wanna bother, then is realli blur and stupid. Lol. Exams are coming for my meis and char, GOOD LUCK FOR UR END OF YEAR EXAMINATION. Althought they will gumble and say do u have to remind me of that >_<. Lol ... .Blog too long, from 16 aug become 17 aug. ZZZ. A total of 2163 words. Longest entry till now. AHAHA.
Hexer :~:
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Hmmm today is monday and dont have school, cause this week is exam week. Slack and confuse and reflection day. Haha. Today wake up, talk to yun yong a bit, then notice, he always keep things to himself ti( u guys use di , i use ti ). Then sort of see me, there are nothing i keep to myself , maybe is i always very 'on' to talk to every1 beside me ba.
Haha, i just notice, that , from the 2nd is double of the first post, and the 3rd post is double of the 2nd ti. But not to worry, 4th post will not be that long ba. Still donno how long it will be.Lol.
Then in the afternoon, played Dota with Jun Jie a bit, then akat/izumi came online, then we all play together. Then i start to feel sian of gaming le, then tell them that i will be sleeping lor, before going off, made fun of both of them as a item. Haha. Then kana shooted back. Haha. Then after which, go lay down on bed. Then start thinking about char a bit then doze off le... Haha.
Then sleep as soundly as a piglet. Then woke up le, found nobody at home, then notice is 6pm, mum went to fetch didi, papa , always not at home ti, but i know that he is outside slogging at work ... Must ask him to take care(mental note).Then saw char and mei online. Then chatted with them again, in a same msn chat log. Haha , again chat till very happy. As usual , 70% of the message is from crystal mei, flooding the chat. Haha, but without her, the chat room will lose a lot of 'life and colour'.Seem like they getting closer and closer. Maybe will be close jie mei 1 day ba. Lol. Then char went and read crystal mei blog. Aiyo bad day for crystal mei, kana malign and hit by ball. Must do something about it ... And must take care arh mei ... And this Denise mei, say i bluff her ...what got sao sao never tell her, is she misunderstand la ... Haha, i also never see before mei-fu ... ?_? face ...Lol. Then char proceed to read my blog ... Then suddenly she say, so i am the one causing you to be so upset yesterday, sorry. I was like, its not ur fault, its all my, that i cause u to be worried yesterday. Then today make u feel gulity and lost of words. Then she say, i , i dunno what to say. Then i was like, dont say anything la, i feel very bad le, by right i should not even blog this kind of stuff. STUPID ME! Even worst. Then she say, i go study alrdy , and maybe i will know what i want to say. Haiz... See la Hexer, stupid u ... Now u gotten urself in a fixed , see how u gonna get out of it.
Haiz ... Then she was online... Haha. This whole day, i spented most of it thinking. I thought about char ... Which is normal i suppose. We know each other not for long.Only , haha , and i am drawn towards her deeply already. Well, time izzit everything. I thought about it, no doubt that she was the right 1 for me... I will be happy with her. But the main point is not that whether i am happy or not. Is that will she be happy? Am i the right 1 for her? Thats what realli matter, to me. I dont care whether if i can be together with her or not ( deep down i hope can la... Haha). I just wish that i can be by her side, support and encourage her in everyway possible. Be there when she need me, and be there when she dont need me, summing things up, always be there for her. Steady or not, its just a name a status . As long as she is happy, everything is okie ... Tidus always told me, that when 2 ppl cannot be together, either 2 can suffer or 1 take all the suffering. I will choose neither. I believe , that true happiness come from others, not from urself. That happiness will last and be remember forever. Thousand of donno and if this happen and that happen, so confuse, all dumped at the back of head. Maybe not meant to be, maybe meant to be. What if i am not the right 1 for her, right 1 so what? Etc etc. Haiz ...
She keep asking me dont worry for her ... But when u have feelings for some1, not worrying for that person is impossible ti. Then i ask her, why you say that ? She reply, cause you worry about me then you neglect yourself. Maybe ba ... Haha , but realli cant help it. Wants things to go smoothly and happily for u. Let time show everything ba. Meanwhile i will try to uds her. And let her know more about me. But deeply i hope, that she is happy always, her exam coming soon le, she say if dont get well , will get scolding, must ask her to get into mood of studying. Haha.
Lastly, crystal mei keep feeling down, due to her ex unthoughtfullness actions and hurtful words. Realli hope this mei of my, can be happy always. And find a good guy soon.And hope her face will be alright. Realli a bad day for her... Hope things will be better tmr for her. May some1 up in heaven bless her ba. Cause ... Every1 should be happy. None should be sad. Thats all for today.
Hexer :~:
Monday, August 14, 2006
Haha 3rd blog entry. To all close 1 out there, my blog's entries must be boring right ? Cause i am just a normal boy living in a normal world, but what rock my world are those ppl beside me. You make me who i am . And none can replace me and none can replace u guys. Thus we are special ppl living in a normal world.
Hmmmm, today overall , is quite a sad day ... ... Today, when i first woke up, saw zhao rong reply to my notice of not able to go squash. He sort of sound he didnt believe that i hurt my back and was giving it as a excuse that i couldn't wake up due to playing computer games till early in the morning, well, i think he thought that way because the sms was send at 2am in the morning. >_<. Then woke up le, pei brother wan wan , and watched a bit of tv then morning become afternoon le. Called tidus up and asked if he got any plan today. He say going to study with keli ... Then i dont realli like studying in groups so told him , see first ba. But in the end got go. Haha. And it was at west mall, from hougang all the way to west mall >_< , an hour trip there, reach there at around 2pm , then study till around 6pm. Then every1 go off le, like always, i and tidus took to boon lay to get seats then sit down and chat a lot ... Haha.
Then i told tidus about char. Then he said , 3 years steady leh, its a long time, plus on top of that, is not they wanna break ti. Althought they made a pact to put in behind as past, still both will look back at times ti. I was like, wtf, pour freezing water on me ... T_T but he was got a point and was right. 3 years was a long time. And also he said. Does char know what she wanted? I said donno. He said , if i have a gf for 3 years , and broke due to her parent's objection. Then suddenly some1 like u , and u got slight feelings for that girl , and u know u know . What will u do? I was stunned. I didnt knew i became selfish and occupied with my own thoughts and didnt consider char's thoughts. Then he said, she got a ex le, meaning that no matter what , she will compare u(me la) and her ex, its human nature ... I was like ... Extremely Sadded lor ... Then on top of that , he added that thats why first love is the best. I was like, this water u pour on me, was very cold ... Very very cold. But i uds what he was trying to warn me and was for my own good. Then he said, despite i said all these, i realli wish that u and char can be together. Then u must help her to know what she realli wanted and know what u realli want, and help each other. His last phrase. If u wan things to happen, u cant sit back, u gotta make it happen. Then suddenly things are clear to me.
Then after alighting at outram , i receive a sms from him, bro, i am sorri for those things i said, but i realli have to tell u these things, cause it is because of these things , that the girl i like and i cannot be together, i dont wan u to make the same error and mistake i made. I was so touched.My eyes become watery , but i control myself not to cry at that time. But now as i am blogging, droplets of tears flow down my cheek. Its was too much to take. Jun jie , tidus , now i uds , why u all said that we can be brothers for life. It is not because we have a lot of common. Its the bonding that we past. The things we went throught. Seem like , i am always the most weakest mentally within we 3. But it will not last for long, i will pick up things and things from you 2. I will learn how to use and apply them. And teach and help other ppl next time. I will overtake u both ti, this is my pact to both of u. Brothers for life ... =''') Realli appreciate u guys.
Then lastly , after coming back , sort of let my mind anyhow wonder and think negatively. Then became moody. Then crystal mei and char ask me what happen , how come i sadded. Then i told crystal mei what tidus said ... Then she say ,tats true,but tat d0sent mean y0u g0t no chance
as long as y0u g0t the sincerity,and als0 tat y0u can gan d0ng her,see,i noe she als0 g0t feeling f0r y0u de,she cares ab0ut ur feelin too,just tat she might still be unsure f0r the time beingg..
iif y0u realli l0ve her,be patient and wait,okay?,she niids tiime to heal,believe miie,y0u just g0t to be more patient,gals are liddat,i als0 g0t one ex i haven put dwn,but after a l0ng time,i als0 learn t0 pput him dwn. I like, so lucky, to have such a encourage mei. Haa. And again. She and my brother was right. Then char that side, i didn't reply her for quite some time and made her worried, stupid me ... Bad me ... She often think that she was disturbing me, but the truth is directly opposite. She the only ger in my life so far , that i can make realli feel loved, meaning of being cared and ppl concerning me la ... Every sms i receive from her, i smiled atleast a bit. Tidus will always say, when i look at my hp after receiving a sms,must be char la ... So happy. Haha ... Jun jie i never told me that i was unhappy because i know i will be alright after a while.
Hmmm this blog entry, extremely long , haha. To 'family' members, are my blog entries sian? Haha. Well , last paragraph ti ba. If not this entry will never end. After considering and digesting what my tidus and crystal said ... Well , see how things go, and i will work hard and smartly ti. To Char ( if she got come and read my blog and to the point of every sentence and word), I wanna hear what u dont wish to say. And will ____ Aiyo donno how to say out la, but just liddat lor. Will be there for u always , thats my promise. =). Thats all family members, here it end. Night.
Hexer :~:
Sunday, August 13, 2006
My 2nd entry , its pass midnight , 2 am in the morning. Blogging for yesterday saturday of 12 august. It was a boring morning and early afternoon. I played dota as usual and quited halfway when Lao Po seem like very stressed with her project. So helped Lao Po with her project a bit, well , can say help or dont help also make no different. Haha.
Then today, so funny, Lao Po get to know Crystal mei( Just promoted to mei not long ago) . Then guess they chatted a lot ba. Girls seem to be have lots of common topics and they can choose not to stop talking ti. Haha. Very happy to see them chatting with each other happily.
Then after which, met up with tidus and other classmate then we went over to keli & her sister birthday party. Then its was a boring party ... EAT AND STONE. P.sKeli( sorri arh , ur birthday party was a success but lack of some games and activities.) Then halfway tidus wanted to go to see fireworks at esplande , then accompany him. We left the party halfway , which is not very nice and polite to do la. Then after reaching city hall , we rush to esplande to see the firework. It was a mermorable event. Beautiful and nice. Which after , tidus wanted to buy flowers for the 2 special girl. Its was a very good idea by tidus. Then i learned from him , that it was little actions we did , little words we said that make difference in other ppl life. And also, when a person is down, always go mile and mile to make them happy. Suddenly i realise, i still got lots and lots to learn from both of my dearest brother. Back to the party, then we hand over the flowers to the 2 happy birthday girls. Haha. Both were dressed in white and were cute and pretty. Lol. Was sms-ing Lao Po throughout the whole party process, haha.
Anyway Lao Po = Charlotte , Charlotte = Lao Po. Haha, know her through dota ti >_< weird lor, haha, then had been smsing with her for less then 1 month liddat. Her character draw me to her, well i cannot denied that i had feelings for her. But i gotta admit that what my mei said was right. If her ex didnt migrate, my chances were 0 ... They had been together for 3 years ... And thats a long time. Dont think i will be a good bf ba ... Haha. Will be a losey bf i guess, Lol ... Wonder if we have a destiny together or not. Well doubt she will like me ba ... Haha ...
Also last but not least, sprained my back when stretching my back in the afternoon . Haiz donno how to play squash later. Given my word that i will go, guess later tell bros, they will uds ti ba. >_< Thats all for today.
Hexer :~:
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Saturday, August 12, 2006
AAAA , just cre8ed a blog today, first blog i have ... Had been wanting to cre8 a blog, to record my life so that when i look back i can see how i am doing etc etc.
First post ... Post what huh ... Hmmm ... Lets see , today jun jie looked for me, saying he very sian, i also very sian, then i recalled that renjie is going to play pool at hougang plaza, then we went there together and played pool, but before hand i called zhao rong,eric and jayton asking if they wanna play pool. But i place my hp at my sling bag when i was playing pool then didnt know they were calling me >_<. Which after zhao rong and jayton went to eric's house, which shortly i and jun jie arrived.
We played and slacked at eric house as usual. Laughter could be heard , smile could be seen , unity can be felt. Haha. Then which after we took dinner except jun jie cause his aunty cooked at home for him already. Then after we went back home, they tooked bus at the pp's bus stop and i walked home from there.
Then after at 10 plus, jun jie asked me if i could print a form , i said can , but when he arrived , my printer printed rubbish , most likely spoil le ba. He was coughing all the way when he was at my house. Then after i made a call to eric hp to see if he could print the form as it was important. jun jie will be taking part in a running cum kayaking competition. Hope he can get top3. Donno can go down to support him or not. Haha.
And lastly here i am , typing my very first entry to my very first blog.
Hexer :~:
Saturday, August 12, 2006
