Haha 3rd blog entry. To all close 1 out there, my blog's entries must be boring right ? Cause i am just a normal boy living in a normal world, but what rock my world are those ppl beside me. You make me who i am . And none can replace me and none can replace u guys. Thus we are special ppl living in a normal world.
Hmmmm, today overall , is quite a sad day ... ... Today, when i first woke up, saw zhao rong reply to my notice of not able to go squash. He sort of sound he didnt believe that i hurt my back and was giving it as a excuse that i couldn't wake up due to playing computer games till early in the morning, well, i think he thought that way because the sms was send at 2am in the morning. >_<. Then woke up le, pei brother wan wan , and watched a bit of tv then morning become afternoon le. Called tidus up and asked if he got any plan today. He say going to study with keli ... Then i dont realli like studying in groups so told him , see first ba. But in the end got go. Haha. And it was at west mall, from hougang all the way to west mall >_< , an hour trip there, reach there at around 2pm , then study till around 6pm. Then every1 go off le, like always, i and tidus took to boon lay to get seats then sit down and chat a lot ... Haha.
Then i told tidus about char. Then he said , 3 years steady leh, its a long time, plus on top of that, is not they wanna break ti. Althought they made a pact to put in behind as past, still both will look back at times ti. I was like, wtf, pour freezing water on me ... T_T but he was got a point and was right. 3 years was a long time. And also he said. Does char know what she wanted? I said donno. He said , if i have a gf for 3 years , and broke due to her parent's objection. Then suddenly some1 like u , and u got slight feelings for that girl , and u know u know . What will u do? I was stunned. I didnt knew i became selfish and occupied with my own thoughts and didnt consider char's thoughts. Then he said, she got a ex le, meaning that no matter what , she will compare u(me la) and her ex, its human nature ... I was like ... Extremely Sadded lor ... Then on top of that , he added that thats why first love is the best. I was like, this water u pour on me, was very cold ... Very very cold. But i uds what he was trying to warn me and was for my own good. Then he said, despite i said all these, i realli wish that u and char can be together. Then u must help her to know what she realli wanted and know what u realli want, and help each other. His last phrase. If u wan things to happen, u cant sit back, u gotta make it happen. Then suddenly things are clear to me.
Then after alighting at outram , i receive a sms from him, bro, i am sorri for those things i said, but i realli have to tell u these things, cause it is because of these things , that the girl i like and i cannot be together, i dont wan u to make the same error and mistake i made. I was so touched.My eyes become watery , but i control myself not to cry at that time. But now as i am blogging, droplets of tears flow down my cheek. Its was too much to take. Jun jie , tidus , now i uds , why u all said that we can be brothers for life. It is not because we have a lot of common. Its the bonding that we past. The things we went throught. Seem like , i am always the most weakest mentally within we 3. But it will not last for long, i will pick up things and things from you 2. I will learn how to use and apply them. And teach and help other ppl next time. I will overtake u both ti, this is my pact to both of u. Brothers for life ... =''') Realli appreciate u guys.
Then lastly , after coming back , sort of let my mind anyhow wonder and think negatively. Then became moody. Then crystal mei and char ask me what happen , how come i sadded. Then i told crystal mei what tidus said ... Then she say ,tats true,but tat d0sent mean y0u g0t no chance as long as y0u g0t the sincerity,and als0 tat y0u can gan d0ng her,see,i noe she als0 g0t feeling f0r y0u de,she cares ab0ut ur feelin too,just tat she might still be unsure f0r the time beingg.. iif y0u realli l0ve her,be patient and wait,okay?,she niids tiime to heal,believe miie,y0u just g0t to be more patient,gals are liddat,i als0 g0t one ex i haven put dwn,but after a l0ng time,i als0 learn t0 pput him dwn. I like, so lucky, to have such a encourage mei. Haa. And again. She and my brother was right. Then char that side, i didn't reply her for quite some time and made her worried, stupid me ... Bad me ... She often think that she was disturbing me, but the truth is directly opposite. She the only ger in my life so far , that i can make realli feel loved, meaning of being cared and ppl concerning me la ... Every sms i receive from her, i smiled atleast a bit. Tidus will always say, when i look at my hp after receiving a sms,must be char la ... So happy. Haha ... Jun jie i never told me that i was unhappy because i know i will be alright after a while.
Hmmm this blog entry, extremely long , haha. To 'family' members, are my blog entries sian? Haha. Well , last paragraph ti ba. If not this entry will never end. After considering and digesting what my tidus and crystal said ... Well , see how things go, and i will work hard and smartly ti. To Char ( if she got come and read my blog and to the point of every sentence and word), I wanna hear what u dont wish to say. And will ____ Aiyo donno how to say out la, but just liddat lor. Will be there for u always , thats my promise. =). Thats all family members, here it end. Night.
