Hmmm today is monday and dont have school, cause this week is exam week. Slack and confuse and reflection day. Haha. Today wake up, talk to yun yong a bit, then notice, he always keep things to himself ti( u guys use di , i use ti ). Then sort of see me, there are nothing i keep to myself , maybe is i always very 'on' to talk to every1 beside me ba.
Haha, i just notice, that , from the 2nd is double of the first post, and the 3rd post is double of the 2nd ti. But not to worry, 4th post will not be that long ba. Still donno how long it will be.Lol.
Then in the afternoon, played Dota with Jun Jie a bit, then akat/izumi came online, then we all play together. Then i start to feel sian of gaming le, then tell them that i will be sleeping lor, before going off, made fun of both of them as a item. Haha. Then kana shooted back. Haha. Then after which, go lay down on bed. Then start thinking about char a bit then doze off le... Haha.
Then sleep as soundly as a piglet. Then woke up le, found nobody at home, then notice is 6pm, mum went to fetch didi, papa , always not at home ti, but i know that he is outside slogging at work ... Must ask him to take care(mental note).Then saw char and mei online. Then chatted with them again, in a same msn chat log. Haha , again chat till very happy. As usual , 70% of the message is from crystal mei, flooding the chat. Haha, but without her, the chat room will lose a lot of 'life and colour'.Seem like they getting closer and closer. Maybe will be close jie mei 1 day ba. Lol. Then char went and read crystal mei blog. Aiyo bad day for crystal mei, kana malign and hit by ball. Must do something about it ... And must take care arh mei ... And this Denise mei, say i bluff her ...what got sao sao never tell her, is she misunderstand la ... Haha, i also never see before mei-fu ... ?_? face ...Lol. Then char proceed to read my blog ... Then suddenly she say, so i am the one causing you to be so upset yesterday, sorry. I was like, its not ur fault, its all my, that i cause u to be worried yesterday. Then today make u feel gulity and lost of words. Then she say, i , i dunno what to say. Then i was like, dont say anything la, i feel very bad le, by right i should not even blog this kind of stuff. STUPID ME! Even worst. Then she say, i go study alrdy , and maybe i will know what i want to say. Haiz... See la Hexer, stupid u ... Now u gotten urself in a fixed , see how u gonna get out of it.
Haiz ... Then she was online... Haha. This whole day, i spented most of it thinking. I thought about char ... Which is normal i suppose. We know each other not for long.Only , haha , and i am drawn towards her deeply already. Well, time izzit everything. I thought about it, no doubt that she was the right 1 for me... I will be happy with her. But the main point is not that whether i am happy or not. Is that will she be happy? Am i the right 1 for her? Thats what realli matter, to me. I dont care whether if i can be together with her or not ( deep down i hope can la... Haha). I just wish that i can be by her side, support and encourage her in everyway possible. Be there when she need me, and be there when she dont need me, summing things up, always be there for her. Steady or not, its just a name a status . As long as she is happy, everything is okie ... Tidus always told me, that when 2 ppl cannot be together, either 2 can suffer or 1 take all the suffering. I will choose neither. I believe , that true happiness come from others, not from urself. That happiness will last and be remember forever. Thousand of donno and if this happen and that happen, so confuse, all dumped at the back of head. Maybe not meant to be, maybe meant to be. What if i am not the right 1 for her, right 1 so what? Etc etc. Haiz ...
She keep asking me dont worry for her ... But when u have feelings for some1, not worrying for that person is impossible ti. Then i ask her, why you say that ? She reply, cause you worry about me then you neglect yourself. Maybe ba ... Haha , but realli cant help it. Wants things to go smoothly and happily for u. Let time show everything ba. Meanwhile i will try to uds her. And let her know more about me. But deeply i hope, that she is happy always, her exam coming soon le, she say if dont get well , will get scolding, must ask her to get into mood of studying. Haha.
Lastly, crystal mei keep feeling down, due to her ex unthoughtfullness actions and hurtful words. Realli hope this mei of my, can be happy always. And find a good guy soon.And hope her face will be alright. Realli a bad day for her... Hope things will be better tmr for her. May some1 up in heaven bless her ba. Cause ... Every1 should be happy. None should be sad. Thats all for today.
